Aghast Adrift

So this is it,
you're forever gone,
I'm forever grounded,
sticking in your memory,
the one I wanted to fight.


So here I am,
so there you are,
keeping it coming and going,
this time I know you're not coming
back, backwards, or down.


I'll try not to contact you,
just as hard as I'll try to hide
that I really want to see you,
that I'm a mess, with or without you,
that I'll never know if you're the problem,
if I'm the problem,
or how to solve it.

I want you out
I want to forget everything
anyhow
like you never existed.


Help me out
make it smooth
by letting me go...